My Mom called to tell me about the Vagina Monologues. She loved them! But she also said she might see me on Sunday or Monday to give me my B-day present. Maybe there IS NO B-day party for me????????? Surely my Mom wouldn't miss it? Maybe I've got my hopes too high? ARRRGH!! I just realized that I am COUNTING on this b-day party. If it doesn't happen I'll be so disappointed. I have to set my expectations lower. No one OWES me this. I shouldn't count on it. But I WANT IT. God I'm so spoiled. I need to chill and say thank you for what people CAN give me .. just love. Love is worth more than ANYTHING .. stoopid party .. stoopid ME.

ACK! My work computer is dying! I am getting it reformatted tomorrow. I hope that's all it needs. I suspect the HD is going. No browsing tomorrow :(

Ron and I were talking when he mentioned my mothers reaction to my "Surprise" Birthday Party. Apparently she said, " But no one celebrates the 50th birthday in our family. What are you thinking?" ROFL. I guess Ron just told her well come or don't come but we're having one. She doesn't know I might not be here for the 60th or 65th. Hopefully she will never find out I might be in trouble and will just come to my party.